One Week

It's been one week, Ellie, since daddy and I said goodbye to you here on earth.  While we were and are so happy for you to be in heaven, happy and healthy with your sister, our hearts are broken because we miss you.  We miss everything about you.  We miss your perfect little lips, your chubby cheeks, the perfect smell of your beautiful hair, the way you could light up a room and we miss getting to love on you.  How grateful we are that we were able to just snuggle with you your last week here with us.  We will never forget that Ellie Kate.  Of course, we will never forget anything about our time with you. 

Ellie, you taught your daddy and I more in thirteen weeks than we have learned in our whole life.  We are so glad God gave us you!  You are a LIGHT to us, still shining to reach others.  Daddy and I will tell your story to as many people as we can because you, little you, are a blessing and a miracle. 

My heart broke when your sister went to be in heaven and with you it broke even more.  I am sad.  Mommy and daddy wanted you and your sister with us forever so we could love on you and raise you and spoil you rotten.  God had other plans, for both of you.  We are trying to continue to find the peace that we know you and Maddy and God would want us to have.  Some days we can find it a little bit better than others.  It still does not take the hurt and the emptiness away.  Oh what I would give to have you back. 

Show me today Lord, that on a day you know can and will bring back some very fresh and painful memories, to find joy.  Joy knowing my Ellie Kate and my Maddy Rose are with you.  Joy knowing that someday we will all be together again.  I know they are safe in Your arms.  That, you know, brings me peace, even on the hardest of hard days.  Help me each day to dip my feet in the water a little more and live.  Live a life that will glorify your name. 

I love you Ellison Kate
I love you Madelynn Rose

Love,
Mommy