I think you all know my now how much Matt and I love music. Music is my outlet. It helps me in so many different ways. Music was also a big part of our girls' lives. I have been thinking the past couple of days of how different Maddy and Ellie were when it came to song. It was so neat to see their different personalities.
Maddy loved music. Being my first pregnancy, I wasn't really sure what to expect. Every pregnancy is different, but I knew babies can begin to hear things. I wanted Maddy to be able to hear music and enjoy it. Not only did she enjoy, she LOVED it! I would always have the radio on or a CD on headed to and from work. When I could begin to feel her kicking, she moved to almost every single song. Carrie Underwood was her favorite. It didn't matter the song, she really loved her voice. We would go to church and she would kick and squirm all through the song service. It was so much fun to feel. She had such a little personality. I loved it!
Ellie was the opposite. So much so, it was funny. When I began to feel Ellie move, I began to turn the radio and and sing to her. She would be moving before the music, and once it began, nothing. I thought it was just a coincidence at first, and then in continued. She would love to hear people talk, but once the music began, she would just go still. Even at church she would be still through the worship service and then when the sermon began, she would move. She had her own little personality too! It was so neat to see how different both the girls were while they were inside of me. To put it simply, life is amazing and unique. God is so awesome!
One day when I was driving home from work, the song "Beautiful" came on by MercyMe. It was the first time I had heard the song and I was just struck by how powerful the song was. Then, when it came to the middle of the song, I felt it. Ellie had kicked! The most amazing part, was she kicked when the words "Before you ever took a breath" were sung. I thought it was just a fluke. Then, I heard the song again and she did it again! Each time that song came on, Ellie would move when it came to that part of the song. I would cry each time it happened. We knew at that time of Ellie's anatomy and to know she was kicking at that point in the song, to me, was a message from God. I knew God was telling me she was strong, she was a fighter. She was. That little girl fought so hard. I sung that song to her many times in the hospital. It holds such special meaning to me. I know not all of the words apply, but the title of it says so much to me. Ellie was beautiful in every way, shape, and form. She was perfect. The end of the song says it all to me. She was made for so much more than all of this. She was.
Love,
Ellie's Mommy
